As Salaamu alaykunna ya akawaats,
So much has happened since my last post. For one I had my baby boy :) (Abdul Qaadir, October 29...6lbs 3oz♥) ((thats another story to tell inshallah soon)). I do not really know where to start but I know one thing, I am very happy to be back. :^)
I have been going thru my mind with loads of thoughts, wow, I just wish sometimes I can click a switch to turn off my thoughts just for a second. So much is on my mind that its piling up.
I want so much for my children and yet due to me worrying about what I want or need for them, I seem to feel like I am failing. I am witnessing it right in front of my eyes.
But, I am determined to do this and will fight what ever it is that is in my way of getting it.
I have decided that I need to revisit a very dear once well known friend of mine named Patients. Patients was once my right hand gal, and in fact I have to admit I miss her very very much!
Because when I was around her, my mind was at ease and I was able to think and make good sound decisions. Through all the many trails I have been faced with, she seem to have run away and before I knew it she was totally gone. But I am searching for her so if any one knows her where abouts please send her my way by way of much duaa, barakallahu feeki.
Dear Patients I miss you terribly.
I have restarted our school again, we are still not where I want us to be. Not just in our lessons but also in comfortability. I pray we get our school room and house in order fast. This helps me function much better when things are ok at home and I can run a much better homeschool environment. But I am not going to let that stop us or me, well I did for the last few months of pregnancy but not no more inshallah. So my dear friend plz come home as soon as you can because I truly need you by my side for this ride.
Until next time, in memory of my best friend Patients! love always...